Road Trip

I'm not very good at doing life right now. My house is a disaster, there are piles of dirty laundry, the kids have been eating donuts, hot dogs and soup for the last three days, etc, etc, etc.


My kids have learned that I'm not in a good mood and it's better just to steer clear of me. My husband doesn't know whether to be supportive or run away quickly.


On a good note, last night, I put all my negative energy to work and cleaned nearly the entire garage and moved a hutch. This morning, I'm cleaning the kitchen and unpacking the boxes for the hutch. I think I'm afraid if I stop moving, I won't be able to start again.


I leave this afternoon for MN to pick up my niece, Shelby. I'll just do a quick turn-around and come right back home. Then tomorrow, we leave for Rapid. By we, I mean just Steve, Shelby and me. (I always want to type 'I' and it bothers me that the correct grammar is 'me' in this sentence. Although it seems like everything bothers me lately, so that's nothing new) Anyway, we'll spend the weekend with my brother, his girlfriend and his three kids, hopefully hooking up with my bio mom sometime. There's a family get-together on Sunday night. Then Steve and I will bring my niece and nephews back to MN on Monday.


There was a huge glitch with Steve. I wasn't planning on him going with me, then he wanted to go, then was scheduled to work, then his supervisor gave him Friday and Monday off, then a couple of days ago, he realized she never gave him Saturday off. so he couldn't go. I told him I didn't care one way or the other but I couldn't handle one more thing that was up in the air right now. His supervisor must have felt sorry for him because she is working for him on Saturday. So now he's going again. I divide up all our kids because I knew I couldn't handle taking them this weekend. Plus, I don't have much money so it would cost to much to take them anyway.


I told Steve that there is a difference between a vacation and a road trip. A vacation, you save money and then use it to have fun while you're gone. On a road trip, you have money for gas, take some snacks and water in the vehicle, maybe utilize the dollar menu at a drive thru, go and come back home. I'm trying to convince him that this is definitely a road trip and not a vacation!


You have no idea how many things I had to delete and re-rewrite in this just because I couldn't stick with a complete train of thought. I think I'll get back to organizing my entire house because it seems to be the one thing I can handle right now.