I've been pretty intentional about posting every day on the blog. Obviously, I've missed a few days lately. The kids are doing ok but I'm a mess. Past and present are colliding and I'm not dealing with it particularly well. I may or may not post about that later. I'm thinking I might need to pull out of my self-induced seclusion and discuss it with a few close friends. We'll see. I've kept myself so busy it's not really an option anyway.

On top of my own issues, we're scheduled to go to a birthday party on Sunday afternoon for the boys' birth half-sister. Included will be all of our family, the boys' birth mom, bio grandparents and probably other friends. Riley has met his bio mom before (see previous posts) but Anthony and Zeke have not seen her since they were in DSS custody (remember abuse/trama issues were most likely caused mostly by bio mom and in the past even her name triggered severe behavior issues). People have lots of questions about why we would even let her see them with all the past issues but that's another post for another day.

I really don't know what the reprecussions of this visit are going to be for any of them. The kicker is that I don't think I'm at the right place in life to help them through it right now. I wish I had more time to prepare them and that I wasn't so overwhelmed with my own stuff right now.
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