Complicated and Messy

This is one of those weeks where, if you happen to see our family, we would look perfectly normal. But inside, we are not ok. I'm not talking about Steve's and my relationship. We're fine. I just mean that there are things going on right now in our family that are really complicated and messy. They're so messy that I can't even write about it. Once the dust settles, and I'm still hoping that it does, I can probably give a little more information. Just know that we are into some very intense parenting right now and have a specialized therapist involved, but very few other people. If we seem to be 'closing ranks' as a family, don't take it personally, just know that we have issues that we need to concentrate on for the time being.


It's terribly ironic that just when I've really started writing again, something so complicated comes along that I can't even write about it. I'm one of those people who usually hate facebook for that very reason. I think it's ridiculous when people post really vague things and then when someone asks about it, they say that they don't want to share. It seems more like an attention getting thing to me. 


I'm NOT intentionally trying to do that. I DO think it's important that my friends know that we have stuff going on right now. I need a few days or weeks to figure out some things and the next steps we need to take. As I have more information and feel like I can share, I'll try to share more.


I was reminded a few weeks ago at the conference that when I write, people not only get an unexpected glimpse into our life, it also helps others not to feel so alone when they face some of the same types of challenging issues. I'll try to bring you along on some of our journey as soon as I safely can.


So tonight, instead of a track meet and swimming, a few of us will have a late evening consultation with a therapist who has re-arranged her already demanding and hectic schedule to accommodate us.


Then we'll see what tomorrow brings. I'm hoping it brings a massage because my shoulders and neck are so tight from stress that it's giving me a headache!


On a positive note, our new insurance will finally start on Friday and, for the past two uninsured months, we haven't had any serious medical issues! Yet................
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