I figured out what I'm doing on Friday night. If you read a previous post, that's the night that my birth mom might spend the weekend with me in Sioux Falls. She asked me to find a hotel with a hot tub and said she'd call me back the next morning to get the information from me. I haven't heard from her yet.
Rather than wait around to see when/if she'll call, I decided to go ahead and reserve a room at the hotel of my choice. I texted her with the information this morning. We're supposed to meet at 2pm on Friday so I probably won't know for sure until that afternoon. If she comes, great! If not, I'm still going to go and have fun. I might invite Steve, since he has to be in Sioux Falls Saturday morning anyway for the Summit League Basketball Tournament. I might invite my friend who's going to the basketball games with me on Saturday. I might invite another friend I haven't been able to hang out with for a while. I might just go myself and relax with a good book. I have lots of options and I feel like I have some control of the situation and it's alleviated most of my stress. :)
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PS: Thanks Sarah! It does help to know that there are others out there who deal with the same kind of relational issues. Ideally, we both know that God can fulfill our relational needs but in reality, it's still a constant struggle.
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:) I'm glad my comment was of some help.. or at least no harm. I kept going back and forth, debating. With all my health problems, I can't tell you how often I hear "I totally understand! I get a migraine once a month" when I am stuck in bed 95% of the time... and it drives me crazy because they are not at all the same. Obviously our situations are still very different, but I know it helps me when I encounter someone who is in a similar situation. :)
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you are going to go and enjoy yourself. All of those options sound great, so whatever happens---have fun! :)